Thursday, July 22, 2010

On Expectations

You know, over the past few days, I’ve had several different expectations fall through for me. It’s been a disappointing week in a lot of ways. Medical school looks like a bust, Wolfhound will be harder to revise than I previously thought, and the future looks a lot less ideal and a lot more uncertain than I was hoping to find it in the final parts of July. As I was thinking over those events today, my thoughts sort of dovetailed with some other things I was pondering.

These days it seems like there are very few people who have real dreams for themselves. When you ask people what they want most, they respond with a cookie cutter picture out of the fifties. They just want a big house, maybe kids, and a lot of money maybe. There just doesn’t seem to be a lot of drive in society to find a dream and see it through. Lots of people seem to want to fit into a niche and settle there rather than setting high goals.

So even as a lot of my goals are falling through and I find myself discouraged by my failures, I can at least console myself with the fact that I had the will to try it. My expectations might have needed to be a bit more realistic, and the road might be difficult as I try to reach those goals, but at least I am still setting them and working towards them. One bright spot in a pit of crap, right? Hahaha.

And on that downer note, I’ll see you around, guys. Have a great week (at least, better than mine has been) and I’ll try to come up with something a bit more cheery for Saturday. See ya.


  1. Dang, man. I hope things work out for you guys. Keep shooting high, and I'm sure things will work out for the best.

  2. Ah, I feel bad now for sending such a harsh critique. Sorry!

    And I've noticed the cookie cutter dream thing too. Sometimes, it makes me wonder if I'm too ambitious with all the goals I have since no one else seems to have them. But then they complain about their lame life and I look at how far I've gone and how far they have not gone, and I'm perfectly content with my goals :)

    Sorry about the medical school not panning out. But at least you both have a job now. AND you've churned out, what, four novels since last year? That's seriously impressive.